There is a difference...

between loving someone and being in love. I realize that I love MG, but wasn't in love with him. If I was I would not be functioning the way I am. Don't get me wrong. I am sad. I miss him. I still feel the disappointment of the end, but I also just feel he wasn't "the one", and that makes me grateful for our split, as weird as that sounds. Still doesn't make me less disappointed that I haven't heard from him, but it is also all worse because I am here and I am not alone, but I sometimes feel that way. Starting over here is harder, but I just focus on the positive and what I can control. I can't lose the hope that there is someone out there for me and when he finds me he will realize that my love and all I give is a gift, and he won't ever want to let that go.....it will be that sacred to him.....and so my search continues.....for that ONE.