On the verge...

of something life changing....I can feel it....this job switch may be the best I have ever made.....a lot of hard work to be done.....a lot to balance, a lot being thrown at me.....BUT I think the rewards will be worth it......just need to close some deals....keep chugging along.....it will happen.......

A Rubber Band

If stretched too much one way will break. Being home sometimes feels like being a rubber band, no matter what, you are disappointing everyone by not hanging out enough and it's easy to feel overstretched.....

Perfect Beach Day

LaLa Land...

Jasper and I got to LA Friday night. It was such a crazy work week last week, I honestly wasn't sure I would have everything together to get to the airport Friday.......but I made it......barely!

Saturday was the perfect beach day with friends.....the weather was beautiful and it was great to just breathe in the salty air.....love it. Now the 405, don't love or miss that so it will be interesting running all my sales call this week. I am excited about a break from my routine, seeing family & friends, and taking a break from dating in Denver.....I have had a string of bad luck as they say. Or as JJ said this weekend, I have to crack a lot of eggs to get to the right one....guess I am getting good at the cracking. I think I have come to two pretty good conclusions about warning signs and when these things happen, it is good to run the other way: 1) If I get a FB friend request right away, esp within the first week, prob not a good sign. 2) If the guy is so gaga for me within the first week or so, prob not a good sign. I guess since this is the first time in my life I have really dated, put myself out there, and forced myself to actually date I should enjoy this......as much as the disappointment in people is frustrating, I would rather know sooner rather than later, and it will all be worth it in the end, at least that's what I keep telling myself!

It's all about having a little fun....

and that's all I am concentrating on right now. Date #2 was so great last night. I am not sure about long term potential, I am not worrying about it either. We went to the Botanic Garden, then got ice cream and sat on a bench at Wash Park for a couple hours and just talked....it was awesome. I am intrigued by RB, on the outside he just doesn't seem like the type of guy who would plan a date at the gardens.....actually have I ever met anyone who would do that? Not sure. Again, it is fun, it is new, it is unknown and I am enjoying it.......

This weekend T comes for her second visit and then EW for her first. We are rockin' Mile High Music Festival and I can't wait. What a fun time we will have. I am also planning on both going to bike class with me Sunday am. I am ready for the craziness and all the fun that comes with it :).

Successful Sunday!

I am so relieved their are no words to describe. I had such a successful day! Had a Match date before the birthday party which was actually good, who knows what will happen but my faith is instilled that their are still intriguing men out there. Thank goodness. Birthday party was so fine. I saw him, said hi, and didn't talk to him the rest of the time. I am so emotionally beyond that, I really am and I think I have been for a while now, it feels great to know I didn't even get a stomach ache or a weird feeling.....I feel nothing towards him as it is easy to do when someone is in such a twisted place and so far from the person you knew. He was the catalyst to get me to Denver, to this place, I have changed so much in the past year because of all I went through with him. It just feels so good to know that chapter is so closed, put away on the bookshelf and so part of the past. I feel accomplished, proud, done......and that feels wonderful.

I can't believe

how fast time is going. I have lived in Denver 9 months, where has the time gone? I can't believe I have gone 9 months without having to see that blast from the past. I am actually excited to get it over with tomorrow. I have a blind date before so hopefully I have a glass of wine before as well, hee hee. I am good, it's much easier knowing I am past it and he isn't even in a place where we can have a productive conversation. Talked to M about it last night after we went to bike class. I told her I didn't call him back and she wouldn't have either if she got that vm. She gets it. I feel bad for her that she has to deal with this and always be the glue there.

Next week I actually have a ton of sales calls, both in person and over the phone with some huge targets. I am excited, nervous, anxious......I want to get to the point where I feel like I understand all I am doing and I know that will come in time.

Tonight is girls night with some girls from Intern Inc. Very excited!

Thankful

I am so thankful for my friends. If you are reading this than you are definitely one of them. The giggles we share over the events in my life and the way we can be at so much ease with it all as I am no longer in that bad place. So funny how it can seem like there is no end and then with a lot of work and a lot of help from my friends, you just emerge from it. The future seems possible, exciting, and full of so much promise. I am living my own little adventure, the reason for writing this in the first place. Every little event and moment adds to the journey I am on. I have learned to step back, take it in, breathe in the surprises and just be okay with it. Sure there are moments along the way that cause pain and disappointment, but beyond that I always have so much more to be grateful for than the disappointment could ever bring. I am lucky. I am blessed. I am learning to take in this journey......have fun along the way and appreciate the little things.

New Job

New Excitement
New Challenges
New Goals
New Chaos
New Pressure
New Friends
New Demands
New things to learn
New balancing act
New expectations

most of all....
NEW HAPPINESS

Life

is funny. You are on a path, you think you know what's ahead and life comes in and switches things up. I am okay with this for the most part, I believe there is a reason at the end of all this, a time when it all makes sense, but sometimes I just want to be done. Done with the drama and the people from the past with more issues than I could talk about here, but who will always be in my space. It is annoying. I honestly don't know how I can be still surprised when I hear the recent stories, but I am. It is really time to just be done. I am not sure I am going to put myself in the situation where I have to be in the same room..... The lack of respect and lack of ability to just face the situation is pathetic and the situation you are in now actually makes me laugh. THANK GOD things worked out the way they did, thank God that even though I had to go through so much pain, I am such a stronger person from that experience......so much more aware.......much more in the present, much more accepting of this thing called Life............this funny thing......