Time...

Time is a crazy thing, it is going by way too fast. I have almost lived here 4 months already, how has this happened? I am realizing one thing that is very different for me here than when I was in LA is I somehow have less time or maybe I have more time, but use it differently. I clearly have less obligations, less birthday parties, events, etc but this job takes a lot of me everyday. It takes more of me than anything I have ever done and the experience is incredible, but sometimes after work, I go to the gym or a class and I just want to chill for the last couple hours I have before bedtime. The down side to this is I am not having regular conversations with friends like I used too. That part really sucks and I haven't figured out how to balance it yet and I feel awful. I want to be present and available for a phone call and I want to know what is going on back at home and with everyone, I should need to be available to hear it. I need to figure this out and it is definitely something I will be working on here. I was IM'ing with one of my good friend's husbands today and he said do me a favor and give (his wife) a call, she is sad you will lose touch now that you live in a different state. Of course, my response is, are you crazy? That would never happen. It's not like she has called and I haven't called back, in fact I made the last call, on her birthday a week or so ago, but that made me sad. Friendships are invaluable to me and I feel like the ones I have, that I really care about will last a lifetime.....that it should be okay, allowed, and acceptable to go a bit without contact and in your heart you should know the friend is always there. I would hope people feel the same about me. Sigh......have to figure out how to manage this!