Losing my mind....just a little

I can't believe it is Sunday already, where did the weekend go. Was at work till 8 Friday which made getting to drinks before my 8:30 dinner reservation a challenge. Good thing I was going out with a friend from work so we were in the same boat. Work is nuts, I signed up for this, I thrive in it in some respect, and it scares the crap out of me all at the same time. We will make it though, we have too. Saturday made myself go to yoga sculpt, hair appt (turned out fine but so not Sascha) and then some shopping before heading to AT's house for dinner with her and her hubbie. Had such a nice evening, so glad AT lives here. She thinks T is blowing me off and I guess only time will tell. Today her and I are going to yoga together and then blind date with E later. I hate blind dates, esp when you haven't even spoken on the phone but I have to do it. I think yoga will make me feel better. M called me this morning and we were laughing at how incompetent I was at having a phone conversation....just so tired. Really looking forward to next week. S starts with us Monday and Weds we meet in Seattle. Thursday meetings at Starbuck's, Amazon.com and Real Networks.....then we drive to Portland and still working on those meetings for Friday and when I land back in Portland Friday my friend T is here for the weekend. How I love T, she is that friend in my life who always makes me feel good, I can always be myself, and she is so much fun. We haven't had any E&T time in forever so Fri night we land around the same time, M joins us for dinner and then the two of us drive to Breckenridge for a day on the mts, dinner there and then we will drive back Sunday, prob see M&M again and just hang before she leaves. I have another friend coming to Denver Sunday night so we are going to dinner then and I think she is staying with me so that is fun too. I have a couple weeks of semi-calm and then a couple weeks of craziness. Third weekend in March my sis and her husband are coming and I am taking that Friday off to spend time with them and we are going to Breck for a day then too. Super excited about that! March is going to go in a breeze.......trying to make sure I take time to breathe, enjoy small moments and not lose my mind!

Random Thoughts......

I haven't made time for this lately, therefore I am just going to throw some random thoughts down.

1) I love visitors and am so excited for everyone coming March-May. I feel blessed. I am also excited I get to do some visiting during this time. SO excited for AZ- S!

2) I love/hate Girl Scout Cookies, Thank God they are just here once a year.

3) My good friend S is joining our team on Monday and we travel together next week. This will change my life in the best way but also scares me because she is taking a big risk in this move and I carry that responsibility.

4) I bought mini disco balls for the new sales office we have here. We are launching the inside sales team here, takes me back to LA Times days because I am trying to make it FUN!

5) Boys are lame....why are they so lame. My friend K in NJ said it best to me. She said E you will find one that is a tad less stupid than the others but they are all stupid. Loved that advice :).

6) Girls night out Friday, excited to meet some new friends.

7) Last night was spinning, LOVE spinning, had a great time at dinner with the girls after.

8) Am really liking CO.

9) Have had a couple inquiries for other jobs lately, makes me question sticking it out here in this risky environment, but I am committed......have to push through.

10)How great are the Olympics?

11) So happy my friend A lives here, she is a gem to me.

12) Really want to take up my photography again, looking for classes.

13) I think that is all I have been feeling since my last post. Dinner with M tonight, very excited. OH and hair appt Saturday....yikes!

Time...

Time is a crazy thing, it is going by way too fast. I have almost lived here 4 months already, how has this happened? I am realizing one thing that is very different for me here than when I was in LA is I somehow have less time or maybe I have more time, but use it differently. I clearly have less obligations, less birthday parties, events, etc but this job takes a lot of me everyday. It takes more of me than anything I have ever done and the experience is incredible, but sometimes after work, I go to the gym or a class and I just want to chill for the last couple hours I have before bedtime. The down side to this is I am not having regular conversations with friends like I used too. That part really sucks and I haven't figured out how to balance it yet and I feel awful. I want to be present and available for a phone call and I want to know what is going on back at home and with everyone, I should need to be available to hear it. I need to figure this out and it is definitely something I will be working on here. I was IM'ing with one of my good friend's husbands today and he said do me a favor and give (his wife) a call, she is sad you will lose touch now that you live in a different state. Of course, my response is, are you crazy? That would never happen. It's not like she has called and I haven't called back, in fact I made the last call, on her birthday a week or so ago, but that made me sad. Friendships are invaluable to me and I feel like the ones I have, that I really care about will last a lifetime.....that it should be okay, allowed, and acceptable to go a bit without contact and in your heart you should know the friend is always there. I would hope people feel the same about me. Sigh......have to figure out how to manage this!

R&R Weekend

Had such a nice weekend and FINALLY got caught up. I had the most amazing facial yesterday, honestly the best one I have ever had. Really enjoyed my gal, D, she moved here 5 years ago from FL for her bf, he lost his job a bit after she was here and his laziness drove them apart. She loves Denver though and has been here for 5 years. For the last ear she has been in a relationship with someone knew and seems really happy. Funny looking back. She also convinced me I had to try her hair gal, and you all know what a big deal this will be for me. 9 years with Sascha and in 2 weeks I am trying someone new....should be fun, we shall see. I really liked this place, hair studio upstairs and facial room downstairs....exposed brick wall, really decorated fun. Just loved it. On Saturday I did my yoga sculpt class which is heated to 95 degrees and then had lunch with my friend M, her kids and her mom who happened to be in town. Had not seen her mom since Sept and that was really nice......I thought it might be weird, but it never is. I knew them all before...
Today my girlfriend A and I went to hot yoga and lunch and it was great catching up with her. We used to work together in different offices, so happy we live in the same place now. Besides that there has been a lot of movie watching, Olympics watching and shopping online :). I finally feel rested and caught up for the week ahead. I am thinking I need to plan a week in LA this summer. I am already thinking of bocce ball with the gang. Wishing all a great night.

does this really happen?!?

"E, It's K calling, it's the third time I am calling you and you haven't called back.....I am going to stop calling." Geese, that takes "he's just not that into you" on a whole new level....K, you are 38, a snowmobile guide by winter and a kayak guide by summer....you are hot....but our lifestyles are too different, I mean, can't you see that. I was hoping you got the point when I didn't return the first text/call. How unattractive everything becomes as you keep calling. Oh well, I can chalk K up to the only "mountain man" experience I will have here......and just one part of a crazy, fun weekend I had when J visited from back home. (Come back J!!) It's funny how many warnings I have received about those guys when people find out I am new here.

Today

Today I received a care package in the mail from a sweet friend, what a nice surprise. She is a friend I met through someone no longer in my life so I feel so blessed to still have that friendship. It's funny I received her package today because just today I was thinking that I prefer to look forward and not to look backward. Looking backward is too painful, looking forward can make me uneasy, but only because I do not know what lies ahead.....BUT I am trying to become more comfortable in that space, a space where I just trust that good things lie ahead because I deserve them.....

The quote on my card which I love:

"At the center of your being you have the answer; you know you are and you know what you want" Buddha

Thank you sweet friend. xo