Smiling From Ear to Ear....

and I just can't help it. I laugh at myself, for all the over analyzing, self doubt, and worry.....for the negative thoughts that consumed me at times, for now it is all truly behind me. I have found someone who makes me feel like the most amazing person on earth, he is patient, kind, sensitive, caring, funny, and he is there for me. He understands me and doesn't make me feel bad for who I am. He treasures and adores me. I still get so excited every time I am going to see him or he is coming to see me. We have future plans and I feel safe with him and them. This relationship is honest and meaningful and I can't stop smiling. I love what I know is in store for the future and can't imagine all the things I don't even know. The future is bright. Next stop on our journey, apartment hunting on Sunday, the day we celebrate our 6 month anniversary. You see why I am grinning from ear to ear?

Time.......

is a funny thing. Sometimes it goes to fast, other times too slow. I have to be better when working from home. My mind wanders to so many far away places and it's hard to get things done....but in an instant the day is over and everything starts again.

I find myself consumed with so many future thoughts right now that I lose a bit of what is in the present. It is weird and hard to explain. I am obsessed with vacations, time at the beach and breaks in general. 4th of July, Bryan comes to LA with me. Sept we have Mexico, Austin in October for a wedding. Before you know it the holidays will be here, yikes! So many big decisions to be made over the next couple months.....Where to move, etc. I know I can't worry until it is closer to the time but I can't help but obsess about it a little bit.

I am really looking forward to my parents coming May 14th. I am looking forward to warmer weather too. So much to be thankful for and so much to look forward too. I just need to enjoy the NOW a bit more, focus on the NOW a bit more, especially with work. It has been a rough month with that to say the least. I can't wait until the quarter is over on 4/29 to say the least, but then it does start all over again. Time...