and there's nothing else to it. I have thoughts all the time that are meant for this space, BUT for some reason they don't make it here.....maybe I would sleep better if they did! SO, in no particular order, I have some random thoughts to get off my chest....
1) Turkey Day was so great at home. I got really good quality time with my family. My mom and I had my Dad and Grandpa cracking up over our baking antics, it was a lot of fun. I got good time with my sister too, quiet moments to actually catch up and a workout class that left me sore for days :).
2) I travel the next three weeks for work. I feel tired all the time and I just know that the time between now and 12-31-10 will be so crazy at work. I have so many deals that are so close and final steps which will take place between now and Christmas. I just need to take it one day at a time. I am so excited and I have been working so darn hard. I can't wait for it all to be worth it.......and I believe it will :).
3) I think that if someone says something to hurt your feelings, you should tell them, it's just silly not too. I don't get it, well maybe I do because I used to be that way, but I would like to think I have changed. People should be able to realize there are times that words come from the heart and that they are not mean to be offensive. Ah, if life were just a tad simpler.
4) I have weekend fun the next two weekends. Chrissy is here this weekend, I can't believe it! I haven't made a ton of plans as we will play by ear and see what inspires us but dinner/movie Friday and we are going to the light parade Downtown Denver Saturday....that should be fun, I missed it last year. Next weekend Emma comes and we have the Dave & Tim concert here Thursday night.....we have floor seats and the arena only holds 6500 people....should be amazing!
5) I am really excited for Christmas time at home. I think I will actually get to see everyone who means so much to me, some I haven't seen since I left, and it is condensed in 4 events which is great too!
6) I am on the ball with the holidays this year, I don't know how, but all packages went out today. Maybe just a couple tony things left and I am done, which is an awesome feeling.
7) I constantly dream of the beach vacation I will plan once I close some deals. THAT couldn't come fast enough.
8) I have boxing tonight and I am thinking of every reason not to go, but I am signed up so no choice. It's just an hour. I can do that. Then home and pack for my trip to Greenville, SC tomorrow and Thursday and make sure the house is ready for when the cleaning lady comes when I am gone.......it's funny we always have to clean for the cleaning lady, isn't it :).
Tuesday, November 30, 2010
Monday, November 8, 2010
A Year in Reflection.......
This is a big one, Friday was my one year anniversary in Denver....I can't believe it. The last month I have been in a state of reflection.....is there more I should have done in a year, did I accomplish enough...should I feel different, etc. I think when I look back on this year, there are many events that have been unplanned, many things I am grateful for and many adventures ahead I am excited for. I wanted to list them out in no particular order.
1) Probably one of the hardest things about moving away is missing people back home and events I would normally be a part of and probably planning. That is hard. I feel like I have this life here I am building and sometimes that has meant it is harder for me to communicate with everyone....maybe I don't feel the pressure as badly to call everyone back right away, afterall I can't see all of you whenever I want, and maybe some of that is good for me. The hour time difference makes a huge difference and sometimes makes it more difficult to communicate. I just never want friends & family to think I care any less and I hope they realize how much I wish I could be present for every moment.
2) Work is what brought me here, or maybe the catalyst I needed to make a much needed change, work has also been unpredictable and at times unstable. Two jobs in one year certainly wasn't in the gameplan...as I am on the heels of my first deal (cross your fingers) I am so grateful for all I have gone through because I learned a ton. It's just caused me to be a bit more unsettled than I would like and not in the place financially I would like to be in BUT I truly think this is the best job I have ever had.....I work for the most incredible people, work with awesome people and believe this opportunity will catapult me into places I have wanted to go for a long time.
3) Awareness: Slowing down....believe it or not I have done this. I care a little bit less about certain things than I used too. I recognize what I am capable of. I recognize what I deserve. I recognize what is important to ME and that sometimes that is the most important thing. Realizing what I need to be happy, when I need to take a break, when I need to turn off from the world. This was not as easy back home but this is something I needed desperately.
4) I am able to face my fears a little better here in CO. I have done so much soul searching over the past 18 months really and I know what I am afraid of and I would like to think I have become a lot better about communicating that......and sometimes facing them....
5) I am incredibly blessed. If you are reading this than I am incredibly blessed to have you in my life. I truly have been amazed at the outpouring I have received from my friends & family. So many have visited, I know some of you wanted to visit earlier in the year and I needed a break, but I don't think I could have made it through this past year without you. I constantly feel love and support from so many regions in the U.S. and I am truly thankful for this. It might be an email, a post on Facebook, a text, a call, or a trip....it all means so much. It is easy to feel isolated and all of these things make me feel your warmth and love so close to me.
6) I have learned a lot about people in the last year. I have friends here of all ages and of all backgrounds and I am thankful for their open arms and acceptance. I am thankful I have reconnected with friends from the past, have connected with friends I knew but was never close too, and for the brand new friendships I have made. It is the first time in my life I have had to try and make friends and really put myself out there. For as long as I can remember I always had a group, whether it was the small & close one from high school and my best friends who are still my best friends today to the amazing girls I met at UCSB to the incredible South Bay crew and everyone in between I met through people and from work, etc. It has been a great learning experience.
7) There is a lot more I want to see and do over the next year. You can bet I will be on the mountains more this year (Yikes!!), work should stabilize and I am going on a tropical vaca! I will be moving in August to a different apartment and I have more visitors lined up for December that I can't wait for. I plan on using my nice camera a lot more starting with a trip to the Butterfly Pavillion this Saturday with a MeetUp Group I joined. I no longer have the excuse of "newness" to this city. I have to get after it!
1) Probably one of the hardest things about moving away is missing people back home and events I would normally be a part of and probably planning. That is hard. I feel like I have this life here I am building and sometimes that has meant it is harder for me to communicate with everyone....maybe I don't feel the pressure as badly to call everyone back right away, afterall I can't see all of you whenever I want, and maybe some of that is good for me. The hour time difference makes a huge difference and sometimes makes it more difficult to communicate. I just never want friends & family to think I care any less and I hope they realize how much I wish I could be present for every moment.
2) Work is what brought me here, or maybe the catalyst I needed to make a much needed change, work has also been unpredictable and at times unstable. Two jobs in one year certainly wasn't in the gameplan...as I am on the heels of my first deal (cross your fingers) I am so grateful for all I have gone through because I learned a ton. It's just caused me to be a bit more unsettled than I would like and not in the place financially I would like to be in BUT I truly think this is the best job I have ever had.....I work for the most incredible people, work with awesome people and believe this opportunity will catapult me into places I have wanted to go for a long time.
3) Awareness: Slowing down....believe it or not I have done this. I care a little bit less about certain things than I used too. I recognize what I am capable of. I recognize what I deserve. I recognize what is important to ME and that sometimes that is the most important thing. Realizing what I need to be happy, when I need to take a break, when I need to turn off from the world. This was not as easy back home but this is something I needed desperately.
4) I am able to face my fears a little better here in CO. I have done so much soul searching over the past 18 months really and I know what I am afraid of and I would like to think I have become a lot better about communicating that......and sometimes facing them....
5) I am incredibly blessed. If you are reading this than I am incredibly blessed to have you in my life. I truly have been amazed at the outpouring I have received from my friends & family. So many have visited, I know some of you wanted to visit earlier in the year and I needed a break, but I don't think I could have made it through this past year without you. I constantly feel love and support from so many regions in the U.S. and I am truly thankful for this. It might be an email, a post on Facebook, a text, a call, or a trip....it all means so much. It is easy to feel isolated and all of these things make me feel your warmth and love so close to me.
6) I have learned a lot about people in the last year. I have friends here of all ages and of all backgrounds and I am thankful for their open arms and acceptance. I am thankful I have reconnected with friends from the past, have connected with friends I knew but was never close too, and for the brand new friendships I have made. It is the first time in my life I have had to try and make friends and really put myself out there. For as long as I can remember I always had a group, whether it was the small & close one from high school and my best friends who are still my best friends today to the amazing girls I met at UCSB to the incredible South Bay crew and everyone in between I met through people and from work, etc. It has been a great learning experience.
7) There is a lot more I want to see and do over the next year. You can bet I will be on the mountains more this year (Yikes!!), work should stabilize and I am going on a tropical vaca! I will be moving in August to a different apartment and I have more visitors lined up for December that I can't wait for. I plan on using my nice camera a lot more starting with a trip to the Butterfly Pavillion this Saturday with a MeetUp Group I joined. I no longer have the excuse of "newness" to this city. I have to get after it!
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